Hey guys! here to share a good piece of news... I PASSED MY MATH TEST~
29/50! well not a good pass but.. I WILL CONTINUE TO WORK HARD! the sad part about friday is... I failed my econs paper by 2 marks... I didnt make it for the odac exco... Im really sad that I didnt made it. I should have said that Im willing to take up any positions... but i think its better to be a member after all... The girl in the photo that others said that its my girl, Charmaine, is our new vp. Personally, i feel that she is the least expected exco member. I tot she was going to be like me, a member.. Well, i really look forward to be have her as my vp! As for other exco members, i should say that they have been predicted. I feel that they are good picks but in wrong positions. Nevertheless, I sounded as if im going to quit ODAC. BUT CMON. I really love this cca. And i look forward to the camp next year! I think i want to be like Chang Shun. He contributed alot to the cca! even tou he is not an exco member.. Shall do the same! WORK LIKE OX. MUST~

alright guys im going back to my hmework now TATA~

Sorry i'm a bad boy you're a good girl

HELLO NOBODY.
gotta love nobody for his attention.
Thanks!

Well, did nothing much today. Had my 2.4km which was a disaster. I was in 28th position with a timing of 11.43. Ermmm i feel bad saying that its a lousy timing.. But I really want to ace for a gold. Because I don't want to be recruited into army so early.

As I was saying, did nothing. I was seriously doing nothing. Got 14/20 for physics class test. Terrible too. I was so well prepared, yet I got such shit. But in a positive mindset, I PASSED A FREAKING PAPER, WITH A B. Thought about some words that my friend said when he was busy chiding my friend who seriously don't care about his grades when he is in JC right now.

Here's what he said.
现在考不好不用紧，block test 你考不好就惨了....
Well after thinking a while, he made some sense. I shouldn't be dismay by the tests. I should be glad that my ability is stretched.

hope i can do well for the following tests.
Nights.

suddenly, i really miss you.

Coward.

haiix.

Nobody is gonna see this anyway. Im going to say that she has really become a part of me. 

From yestersday, i realised that i didnt changed at all. 1)stilll a coward 2) stilldon't dare to approach her 3)cant really make a change. I swore that i would make a change but sadly i didnt. Im really angry and sad with myself right now. Why didnt i do this? Why didnt i do that?

No one is answering because deep down inside i know. I really feeling crying, but unfortunately my heart wont allow me to. I really want to be in a relationship with you.. but. I have nothing. No accomplishment neither achievements. Lets make my first greatest achievement is t be BUFF. Then take a picture with her. I really miss her. I acted like  i dun care but i still care for her. I cant really contact with her. We're like living in a storybook at different pages. Am i going to be the one always standing and looking at you.

 

NEXT YEAR.

I going to be braver. 

WHY WHY WHY WHY

I felt really sad today :/
thou it's early in the morning, i dunno why i felt sad.
Sometimes i wonder how i lose friends?
my actions?
my words?
I really felt sad because im losing friends.
I dun want to lose friends.
I hate to lose friends.

I dunno why, i felt that my friends are distancing away from me.
I did nothing wrong!
OR maybe they dislike the way i was the previous time i met with them.
I really dunno man.

If people really hate me so bad,
why didn't they tell me in the face instead of garnering support from other friends and create a hate club?
I'm really confused.
I'm always on twitter.
I'm like monitoring the timeline all the time.
I see people tweet.
But i really hate it when that person you really cares posted some weird tweets that makes you think that he/she is talking about YOU.
It really hurts.
Especially when you ask them something, all you get is a one or two word answer.
You are not the person that i once knew?!
Who are you?

I don't breakdown that easily, but I will if it comes to friendship.
I hope that girls out there that are my friends, please please please don't misinterpret my kind actions for an act by a CRUSH. I AM JUST YOUR FRIEND.
Also, male friends, please don't say that I AM A FUCKING HONGSTER. Because you guys didn't even talk to me. And I don't know what's on your mind if you don't speak..

I getting more and more irritated..
I will strike when the time is right.
I really you guys back );

Remember those times we had fun together?
Don't distant away from me, friend.

Even if the sky is falling down.

FINALLY SINGLE IN TERMS OF EMOTIONALLY. NO MORE CRUSHES. :)
Welll, Junquan finally finished his work today!
YESH i can finally play with him :)
but cny coming soon, wondering if we can play or not o:
But oh well :)
I got 16 for my o levels
its the raw score,
while 15 after deduction.
I really want to go jc! :)
IF can i wan go serangoon! :D
But i hope i can go :))
Many guys are going innova but i think i will go innova..
coz i heard the teachers are pretty nice ppl and they are willing to spend effort perfecting our studies! :D
Well.. when the results are released, i saw most of they ppl smiling instead of crying. (;
Even thou you did badly, if you con't to persevere, you will find your piece of heaven.
.....................
Hmmmmm... i guess she won't be seeing this but..
here is a short message to my bmf :)
Im really sorry that i kept asking about ur result, it's because i wanted to congratulate you.. even thou i dunno how many points you got... so i kept asking.. But as soon i saw you glaring at me, i somehow understood the situation and walked away.. Even thou you didnt do well, you will always have your friends there to support you! No matter what path you choose to go, jc or poly, I will support you! Maybe i wont see you again until 16th dec ba. Kekeke. All the best to you. Hope to see your face brighter than ever on 16th dec! :)
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Gah suddenly feel like folding "stars". :/
never did before. Maybe i should try rite? ;D

hehehe.

Allright thats all for today! Bye peeps!

TRASHTALKING

HELLO PEOPLE.
IM GOING TO TALK LIKE THIS TODAY.
(CAPS FTW)
WELL.
I'M GETTING MY RESULTS IN ABOUT 4 HOURS TIME!
WOOOTS.
WELL, THAT DOESN'T MEAN MY STUDIES HAVE ENDED.
MY DAD TOLD  ME THIS DURING BREAKFAST JUST NOW.
"I WANT YOU TO CONTINUE YOUR STUDIES NO MATTER WHAT, POLY OR JC
(WHY YOU NO ITE?).
NO GIRLFRIENDS.
I WANT YOU TO BE LIKE MY THRID BROTHER'S SONS.
(WHERE THEY GET INTO UNI, ONE STUDYING LAW NOW, THE OTHER STUDYING PHYSICS AND GRADUATING THIS YEAR.)"
I WAS PRETTY TOUCHED BY THE FACT THAT MY DAD REFUSED TO GIVE UP ON ME.
<3
WELL TIME TO GO OFF NOW :)
WISH ME LUCKS AND ALL THE BEST TO MY FELLOW CLASSMATES IN THE SAME COHORT AS ME.
THANK YOU BROTHERS AND SISTERS FOR BEING IN THE SAME COHORT AS ME.
LURVYA!

She really means a lot to me, even if she despise me.

I really like the way you talk to me.
Cool and casual.
Maybe i should find back the one you and me once knew and was long forgotten.
Don't worry, he will be back on Monday.
As for me, he put me in a corner to watch.
Watch how this "thing" works,
With respect.
With care.
He'll be back.
He will be there when you need him to.
He knows.

Can you understand me.. You can't even do that.. Never will you once listen to me.. That you always wanted me to be.. Him, where.. I dun even know who he is.. And where is he from..

She could be that one. The one i always wanted but wishes are what they are.
A space could be a change to something new.
A space could give us a possibility.
A space is the distance between our hearts.
A space where we once belong is gone for long.

I really need time to figure this out.